HOW I SURVIVED SELF – HARM AND BIPOLAR DEPRESSION AND MADE IT TO MY 25TH BIRTHDAY
“I feel something’s really wrong with me. I am in pain. Am I ill? What is my illness?” I asked two of my college friends. “Depression” They answered. In my mind, I thought like, “Huh? Is depression an illness?” December 2011. I was in fourth year college then, I was graduating already. It was the first time I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. What is bipolar disorder? According to Google, bipolar disorder is a mental illness marked by alternating periods of elation and depression. At first, I did not know what was the exact term for my illness but I felt that something is really different; I felt something was wrong with my thoughts, behaviour and everything. I told myself: “ This is not me. ” So I kept on asking and asking my friends and family what was wrong with me. And they kept on saying that I was having a depression. Depression. Whoa- It was the first time I heard that word. I did not really know why these happened to me or how it starte...